The butterfly

My persistent struggle,
Gave me colors,
"So beautiful",
I heard somebody,
admiring.

The flowers,so comely,
lured me near,
gave me too much,
surprised me,
with that deluge.

I was the favorite,
for the cameras.
Some used papers,
embezzled my beauty,
sensual,I realized.
deciduous..

Happy am I,
As I made others happy.
I lived my life.
here it ends,
with vain glories,
with no evidence...

May be,
the butterfly effect!

The bridge

Yes! It is the bridge,
Too old with cracks,
With devouring waters underneath.
I couldn't control my eyes,
The turbulence of the waters!
It gushes to swallow,
Every prey which falls.
Curios eyes

I started the journey,
With a determined mind,
I saw many resting in the midway,
I blamed them,Am I too pompous?
Others, too energetic made mistakes to ruin.
No!I can't be callous,
I need to be cautious.

Am I little sluggish?
Destination demands pace.
The sun is at the horizon,
Night is treacherous.
I ought to move fast.
With a weary mind,
I looked at my destination.
(Am I a stargazer?No,I'm not)

From where I am
I looked at that extremity,
With my feet exhausted,
With my head heavy,
I am nowhere,
There are people ahead,
Approaching the target.

This is not my place,
My home is there afar,
My friends are there,awaiting,
For me to join them.
From here I can see,
That crown with emeralds and ruby,
With my name imprinted.

I need to run fast,
This is where I ought not be.

The Outsider

The 7 O'Clock bell,
Echoed in my ears.
The usual reluctance,
Made myself hide,
In the warmth of the wool.
I can't stay for long,
It is not the place to be.
A Sunday formality awaits.

The cathedral stands proud,
Magnanimous,the Dutch creativity!
With people of varied profiles,
With prayers and rituals,in order.
I came for peace,
I didn't get,precious!
My eyes were restless,
My mind was somewhere.

I hurried to leave,
To a world,strange,
With options, luring,
With resistance,negligible.
Where is spirituality?
Whom should I blame?
For making materials, my master,
Is it the world or the God?
(Or me?)

I walked further,
I saw people suffer,
I saw people laugh,
I saw the poor and the rich,
Strive to reach heaven,how?
Where is the equity?
Somebody should be reprimanded.
Is it the world or the God?
(Or me?)

The logic fights with the faith,
"Stop lying to myself",I said.
Take my mask,let me reveal myself.
Let me stop convincing the world.
Let the world know who I am,
What have I done so far?
You are the alpha and the omega,
But don't prompt me to trust.
(I won't,I can't)